Thursday, December 9, 2010
I read and I cry
There is a couple that lives nearby that the woman used to go to our church. I was a child and she is in the youth group and I vaguely remember her. Their daughter is 4 years old. They had tried for years to get pregnant with her and started trying after she was born to have another. She is now pregnant with twins. Well two months ago, they were in a car accident and the little girl went to be with Jesus. She started writing a blog about her journey through grief and healing. I read each post and cry and cry. It's so sad and so beautiful all at the same time. I admire her love for the Lord and how she leans on him and praises him in spite of her circumstances. I can see the love she has for her daughter and the way she describes their times together remind me so much of mine and Addison's relationship. And that is why I cry mostly. My greatest fear would be to loose one of my children or my husband. Each time I read I want to grab Addison and hold her and not let go. She is at school now so that is why I'm blogging. Reading her blog is a constant reminder that life is so short and we are not promised tomorrow. It makes the times I get frustrated at Addison or annoyed almost embarrassing because I know that if she was taken from me, I would spend the rest of my life wishing for those moments back. Every day I make points to love on Addison no matter how busy or tired. I've always thought of myself as pretty patient with her and that I don't take her for granted. But I'm human and that means I make mistakes. I get tired of answering the same question for the 20th time or upset when she disobeys or when she spills her water for the second time in 5 minutes and we're running late. But lately in those moments of my frustration I am quickly reminded of this woman's heartache and I'm quick to change my attitude towards Addison. I pray that I never have to fully understand what she is going through. After reading I say a prayer for her because I know that if I had to go through this, that God is the only one who could help me.
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I, too, read her blog, and it breaks my heart. I feel so much pain for that family. I really don't know how I'd go on if I lost Kylie or Chris. I also know the boy who caused that car accident, and I feel sorry for him (to an extent), too. It's just an all-around sad situation, and I pray for them every single day and hope things get better with each day that passes.
ReplyDeleteI've been reading it too. It makes me cry. I am just thankful she is letting herself grieve and not holding everything in trying o be strong for others. I have seen what that will do to a person. She is a remarkable woman.
ReplyDeleteRachel has always been such a sweet, good, and Godly person. She comes from a wonderful family too. I still can not believe that this has happened to her. I cried and cried the weekend of the accident. Once you are a parent, it hits extra hard. Let's all keep praying for her and her whole family. I know every prayer going up for them helps them through this horrible time.
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