Thursday, November 4, 2010
The nights have gotten worse...
Remember how I said I got a nice stretch of about 3 hours or a little more the first time? Yeah...that's long gone. For the past week I'm lucky to get to the two hour mark. And then it's a little less each time. Maybe he just isn't in to sleeping by himself. I've been making him until around 5am because I'm too tired to fight it so I pull him into bed with me. Earlier this week I wasn't feeling very positive. I know that this phase will pass and that eventually I will sleep again, but in the moment it feels like it will never end. I haven't had more than 5 or 6 hours of sleep a night in over a month. I haven't slept longer than 3 hours without waking up. It's just hard. Recently my happy baby has become hard to deal with the few hours before he goes down. I've spent nights rocking him while he screams all the while quietly singing to him wondering why because he's too loud to probably hear me. The hardest part for me is to be up dealing with it while the rest of the house is asleep. But today I'm giving myself an attitude adjustment. I can't change my circumstances, but I can change the way I respond to them, right? I know that there are so many couples that wish they could be in my shoes right now because they can't have a baby. I am blessed. And as hard as this is right now...this too shall pass.
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You're doing such a great job, Jennifer! It is hard to remember that when you're in the middle of it. Heck, I'm still in the middle of it! haha. I was just up a lot with Lucy last night, too. It gives me plenty of time to think about my attitude and my heart. You are doing the right thing and just remember that every day he gets a little older and a little closer to independence and then we'll miss it, right? :) haha.
ReplyDeleteI so know what you're going through! Several weeks ago, Kylie was literally waking up every 30 minutes all night long for several days. I thought I was seriously going to die from exhaustion. People always told me that having a newborn was hard but you never realize HOW hard it's going to be until you have one. You are doing a GREAT job. Just push through, and before you know it, it WILL be over!
ReplyDeleteI was also going to tell you something that works when Kylie gets really fussy. It may not work with Weston but it's worth a try! I give her the gripe water every night, which helps A TON but sometimes during the day and even after giving her the gripe water at night, she still cries and fights going to sleep, and it's really hard to console her. But the past few days, I've been doing this, and it's worked great so far! I put her head up on my shoulder, put my lips on her ear, and quietly "Shhhhhhhhh" in her ear, only stopping to take breaths, and she calms down pretty quickly and falls right to sleep.