Tomorrow

Going to the hospital tomorrow. They are going to have to give me some medicine to slow my heart rate down because they are going to be taking pictures in between the beats. Then they will be giving me an IV to dilate my veins and arteries so they can see everything better. Due to my age, my blood pressure is lower than most of the older people that go into have this, but my heart rate is higher. There are some concerns because lowering my heart rate will lower my already low blood pressure. One of the reasons I may be having heart pains is because my heart is on the right and something could be stretched or bent. So dilating could actually make things worse. My cardiologist has told them to notify him before they start the test and they said the good news is I will already be at the hospital if something goes wrong...not really that comforting to me!

The comforting thing is my relationship with Jesus. I am trusting God that everything is going to go alright. I am believing that the test will not have any complications and they will be able to find out what is wrong. I'm praying that whatever it is, it will be minor! It's so hard for me though. I'm a worrier by nature. When I'm scared, they enemy always attacks my thoughts and I think the worse. For the past several days I have been a mess. Almost every time I look at my precious daughter I tear up. I can't imagine not getting to watch her grow up. She is my world!! The prayer I pray over my life is that God will give me a long, happy, and healthy life. And I'm standing in that. I know that my God is the same today as he was yesterday. I've seen miracles happen, and if need be, one will happen for me. But it's not always easy to believe when you are scared.

Please be praying for me. I check into the hospital tomorrow at 9am and Lord willing, will be leaving tomorrow afternoon!