All grown up

I think I officially feel grown up. As if marriage, building a house, buying cars, having children, turning 25, etc...I really feel grown now.

About two weeks ago I got an unexpected phone call in the middle of cooking dinner. I was asked to join the women's board at church. My first thought, "Did you really mean to call me??" I told her I would talk to my husband and pray about it and then let her know. At first I just kept thinking NO. All these reasons kept coming to me...I wasn't old enough, not holy enough, I wont fit in, I'm not qualified, I'm too shy....lies. None of us are "holy enough". For all of us have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. Our lives are supposed to be in a constant pursuit of getting closer to God, right? I might be shy but in the past few years I have been gaining confidence in who I am. I'm younger, but I'm not too young. Plus by being younger I could bring fresh perspective and maybe encourage the younger woman in church to get more involved. Also if I was under qualified they would not have asked me.

Nathan really didn't push me much in any direction. He said if I didn't feel led to do it, he would support that but if I said yes he would fully support that too. I just kept thinking about it and praying and felt like I was supposed to do it. Might sound silly but it felt VERY outside my comfort zone and that was part of the appeal. I'm looking forward to learning, growing, and making a difference! At our first meeting this week a women came up to me afterwards and said, "I had never heard your voice before but after hearing you pray...wow...I believe you're going to do great and I can wait to see how God uses you this year." Just the encouragement I needed!! Little did she know I was very nervous praying aloud in a room filled with women whom many I look up to spiritually.

I think it's important to push ourselves in all areas and not just spiritually. How boring to only do what you're comfortable with or stay stagnant. Each time I feel nervous or unqualified I'm just giving it to the Lord. I am really excited to be used and feel honored that they saw something special in me.

So here's to being grown up! :)