Failed at the first chance I was given

The other morning while Nathan was gone at the gym and the children were both asleep. I was sipping my coffee and getting mentally prepared for the day. (I wish I did that every morning!) I came across this quote...

WORRY implies that we don't quite trust that God is big enough, powerful enough, or loving enough to take care of what's happening in our lives. STRESS says that the things we are involved in are important enough to merit our impatience, our lack of grace toward others, or our tight grip of control.

I thought "Wow! How true. What an awesome quote. I need to apply this to my life."

Then the kids woke up and Nathan came home...

Nathan had his physical for our adoption that morning. In the hustle and bustle of everyone trying to get ready for the day, he asks if there is anything he needs to take with him... Umm...yes! He informs me he doesn't have the proper forms printed off. Immediately I started to WORRY and STRESS. I was worried that things would not get taken care of in the proper way and I stressed because I feel like I'm doing all of this adoption stuff alone and it's overwhelming me. Do you think I acted in love? Nope. I was short with my husband and took out my emotions on him. Just the exact thing that I had said I would not do an hour before that.

After he left I felt bad. I was disappointed in myself. Even while he was here I could see myself being stressed and yet I didn't care. I was mad that he didn't print off the forms that I'd asked him to weeks ago and that he didn't even think about it until it was time to go. I started thinking about how God would've wanted me to react. I called my husband to apologize. In the end it kind of came together. He didn't get one form that we needed but hopefully I can get that taken care of without him.

I think as women it can be harder for us not to react or to lead with our emotions. For me personally when I feel pressured and I'm stressing about something, I don't always react the way I want to. That is where I'm learning that the constant attitude of Christ comes in. Because when I take God out of the equation and go by what I feel alone, instead of giving my feelings to God and aligning myself up with the Word...I fail.

Thank you Jesus for your patience as I learn daily.