Each day Nathan has been saying..."One week.", "6 days", "5 days". I told him that I didn't need a countdown. I am WELL aware that Addison's birthday is Friday! I'm really excited about her party. I'm upset because I ordered her gift that was supposed to arrive in plenty of time and now it says it might be a week late. But I'm praying it will arrive before her birthday. Nathan and I bought her a very large kitchen set and I wasn't sure if I wanted to or not. I know that it is something she will love the older she gets and it will last for years, but I wasn't sure if she would play with it now. But I didn't want to buy her something she would only use for a month either. So I decided to go with the one I picked out months ago. I can't wait to have some make-believe tea parties and cooking lessons! :) (Thank you Jesus again for giving me a daughter!)
A little over a week ago Nathan and I were sitting on the couch and he just randomly asked, "What if we got pregnant right now?" I'm sure the look on my face was one of a deer caught in headlights! haha I was not very happy about it. But in these past few days I've been thinking I want another baby. What??? I can't even believe that came out of my mouth! haha I told Nathan that I hope this momentary baby fever is just because of Addison turning one and that it passes soon. What on earth would I do with a baby right now? When would I even have time to take care of it? Addison still isn't napping so who knows if she ever will. My day begins before 7am every day because she has decided to believe, "The early bird gets the worm.", and wakes up before the sun. I use her 30 minute nap to clean as fast as lightning and take Titus outside to get out some energy. Addison got a little better with eating, but nothing to blog about, and this past week has been TERRIBLE! Just thinking about how sick I was when I'm pregnant is enough for me to want to give up sex! haha So why I would want another baby I don't know. But I can't wait to feel all the hormones of having another baby naturally, I want to try breastfeeding again so bad, and I miss some of the good things about a cuddely little newborn. So I guess I'm at the point that I am not ready, but if it happened, I wouldn't be as upset as before. Ideally I would like to wait at least until the end of the summer, but I am looking forward to some things.
Some moms I know have super easy babies and they can't wait for them to grow up. I know that it's going to get easier and some days I'm so frustrated that I need it to get easier soon, but I'm clinging to every day I have. It is so much fun to see her come into more and more of her personality and see all that she is learning. She has been saying "Hey" for a few weeks and has added another word, "Hi". She tries to say cat, but it just comes out, "Caa". Addison is walking so much more. If she could figure out how to stand back up without help, she would be walking like a pro. (She did it once, but didn't realize she was doing it.) She signs Please when she wants something, brings me a book when she wants to read, and is constantly finding things to put in her baby stroller and take for walks. (Like the tv remote that I end up searching 20 minutes for!) She is just so cute and happy. If she would sleep and eat, she would be the perfect baby to me. But none of us are perfect. But next time I am praying for a happy baby that LOVES to sleep and eat!! :)
Haha, I have a feeling I will be hearing the words "WE ARE EXPECTING AGAIN!" coming out of your mouth soon! :)
ReplyDeleteIt's so hard thinking about your "baby" getting bigger and turning one year old, but truthfully it is only going to get funner from here! Soon she will be running around playing pretend and trying to "style" your hair haha and that will be some great times!
Aww...even though Noah's 2, its still hard to believe he won't be a baby anymore after this little one is born. Its always a bitter sweet transition, but like Hallie said, it really does get funner. They interact more, understand more and while tantrums do occur, they pale in comparison to the fun you have with them.
ReplyDeleteAlso bear in mind, that even if you were to get pregnant now, you still have almost 10 months before there is a new baby in the house. At her stage in development, sooo much can change with her in 10 months! Its always hard to look past the current way of life when trying to decided about a subsequent baby..but they don't just appear and you start with a 1 year old and newborn..there's time to adjust thankfully! :)
The first year, it is hard but it just seems to get better and easier. In time, you will be ready!
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