Heaviness

There is so much going with with so many people I love right now. As a family we received some hard news and it set back a lot of our plans as a family but I'm not ready to get into all that. Then there are other family and friends going through so much at the same time. I don't feel right sharing any of those stories because they are not my stories to tell.

I feel heavy. I feel like there is a dark and heavy cloud pressing down on my head and it's physically draining me...

I heard the song Worn by Tenth Avenue North on the radio the other day and just cried. Not for myself, but for the people I love. I feel like I've always taken on other's pain and feel their sorrow in the depths of me even if I didn't want to or mean to. I am using it to pray for these people. I am believing that suicide will not win, that marriages will be restored, Hope will be given to the lonely, and that circumstances that look impossible will be overcome. It's hard when so much is happening to the people you love and at the same time, but I am thankful for the Holy Spirit that comforts and that the God I serve is mighty!

"Worn"

I’m Tired I’m worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
To keep on breathing
I’ve made mistakes
I’ve let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world

And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

I know I need to lift my eyes up
But I'm too weak
Life just won’t let up
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

My prayers are wearing thin
Yeah, I’m worn
Even before the day begins
Yeah, I’m worn
I’ve lost my will to fight
I’m worn
So, heaven come and flood my eyes

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause all that’s dead inside will be reborn

Though I’m worn
Yeah I’m worn