I pray I always remember Weston's birth as clearly as I do today. If you scroll down on my blog you can read his birth story so I wont rewrite that, but just wanted to share a little of my heart about it. Before giving birth at home I believed that it was safe and the right thing for me. Throughout the pregnancy I never had any doubts. But once I actually went into labor I got scared. All these worries and doubts crept in because my labor was very intense and he was coming fast. I never told Nathan or my midwife that I was scared. I just kept praying in my head and reminding myself that God designed my body to this. I don't take lightly the fact that many woman do not get the birth story they want. I know that I am blessed. I never desire to be pregnant again, but I would like to go through labor. Really! I can't tell you how anyone else feels but for me... that moment when the urge overtakes you and all you can do is push, to feel your baby come down, and when he/she actually comes out...well that is indescribable to me! I've never done drugs, but I can only reference it as the greatest high I could ever experience. When Weston was born here at home I remember my first words were thanking Jesus for my son. I was overwhelmed with wonderful emotions as most moms are but all I kept thinking was, "We did it and at HOME! He's here, he's safe, my body really does know what to do! I did it! I did it!" I felt so empowered!
When I started to push, Nathan had climbed into the birthing tub with me. I am also blessed to have a husband that came to trust the natural process of birth and support me! There are many times I fall more in love with that man, but the man he is while I'm in labor...well that man is my rock! Here is the picture taken right after Weston came out and was placed in my arms and still attached. Each time I see it I can feel like I did in that moment to a degree. It makes me tear up. His little fist is proudly out as if to say, "You did it Mom!!" :)
Today Weston turning one also signifies that I have now been nursing for a year! We made it to my first goal! I knew we wanted more children but the opportunity to nurse was the driving force in me getting pregnant again instead of adopting twice after Addison. I am so happy that everything went so well with nursing. We had a couple little bumps in the road but overall a wonderful nursing experience. He still nurses a lot so I feel confident that he will continue for a little while and I'm glad. Besides all the wonderful benefits to his health, I'm not ready for him to stop yet. :)
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